MY GOD! WHAT HAVE I DONE?!

… And you may find yourself living in a shotgun shack - Me: it's not THAT bad

And you may find yourself in another part of the world - Me: I've traveled very little in my lifetime

And you may find yourself behind the wheel of a large automobile - Me: Probably at some point, but not on a regular basis, especially by early 1980's standards

And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife - Me: Finally one I can do this with: and

And you may ask yourself,.........

"Well, how did I get here?"



I'm glad you asked David. I didn't get my first Internet capable computer until I was in 9th or 10th grade I believe. My parents had zero interest or need for a computer so my first machine was a Apple-Mac with a fast as lightning 28k modem to compete with the only phone line going to our house. I would make stuff just in notepad docs and just drag them to see what they looked like in Netscape. In the early days of my Internet experience I found a piece of software I have long ago forgotten the name of, but it was a very primative website editor/generator. You could grab text and images and move them around, insert tables etc. While cool the resulting html code it generated was ugly and not to my liking. I made a few sites, for fantasy football teams, fictional bands, personal sites in the days before Myspace (which I never did create an account for). Eventually college got to crazy and such things were either abandon or the accounts were closed. I might have archieved the sites somewhere, but I wouldn't even begin to know where to look or they only exist on the hard drive of a long ago non-functional computer I no longer have and therefore lots to the ages.

When I went to college I was either going to go into coaching, specifically football or computer programming. I hadn't yet decided when I took the generic "Computer" class. Most reading this would find it laughable now but it was taught by a guy who turned out to be a good friend of mine for my first few years of college. I sent him the link to my site and his reaction was something like "Cool site, not if you could just find Christina Ricci on a train...". He was just giving me a hard time, but the site was a hodge podge of all my likes and interested instead of being about one thing. My inability to commit to a single topic has continued on decades later in just about everything I do online now, youtube, twitter, you name it nothing ever devoted to a single topic, just a miss-mash of of the many things I'm into. Even my sites devoted to my now defunct fantasy football leagues pointed back to my personal ecletic site.

Recently I was trying to make a simple website for almost entirely my own use using Google Sites. I found it even more restrictive and bothersome than the html editor from way back in the 90's. Sure I could inject my own code if I wanted to, but it was clunky and restrictive.

I signed up for webspace in various places but it always came with stuff I didn't want or need. Certificates had to be created, just way more complicated than "Hello World" between simple html tags. All those accounts are abandon now, waiting to be garbage collected by inactive account undertaker. No worries though, very litte if anything substational was made with those overly complex hosting sites.

"Why can't I just push out simple html?!" I thought in frustration. I tried differnt things off and on for years. Recently, after my last attempt I gave up.

In case you hadn't guessed it, I decided not to go into coaching. As I write this more and more examples of stuff I made websites for are coming to mind, so I think I was pushing stuff online as late as 2009ish. One of them was a BASEketball league we kept stats for, eventually just sharing google sheets was easier. That's a pattern that's gonna keep coming up. Specialised sites picking off stuff I had on my personal site one by one.